January 23 2025

Sitting down to dyad with the “person in the world” on and still active

It’s not yet 8 and i have already been up and back down for a nap

Bread dough is rising

I have read, showered, walked the dog and fed all 3 4-leggeds

Started working on the new website.

and here i am?

Is there worry energy here?

not super out loud and yet…

I confess there is

I want to know Rona’s surgery is done, all is well and she is home.

I would like to know the girls are in Kentucky settled and happy.

So Yes as i enter today’s dyad i bring with me a “worry vibration”.

and it is my desire to surrender it all – it doesn’t work in the Tune of Love and Above and

Love and Above is where i choose to Be

God’s Prayer for me is Perfect Happiness

I open to “make that so”

Thank you for the triad

For the increased awareness with which the “force field of worry” is being seen – along with some of the ideas/constructs that keep it in place…

• if i don’t worry i don’t care
• worry keeps my loved ones safe
• worry keeps me safe
• what if God isn’t Real – what if the Truth isn’t TRUE and what is seen with the physical senses is all that is real?
• what if i fail? What if no matter how i show up – 10,000 years from now it will still be as fucked up as it is now

All that floating around – held within the “Worry Force Field”

As i continue to rest and watch it – it appears to be coming more and more into focus and the body is responding as if it is in danger

Heart contracts

Brain foggy – hard to think – headachy

I see the small self attempting to use logic and reason to make it small again and I know that is not useful here.

I “know” that what is more useful is to continue to allow the all of it to come out from all the places it has been hiding

It is Safe and Good for this “force field of fear” to announce itself

It cannot hurt me

It does not define me

And, Here and Now, I AM present “through it”

I see the individual tiny snowballs fall

the diffuse light of the sun through the cloud filled skies

The sound of the plow truck

The feel of bare feet on carpet

Hand holding pen as it moves across the page

The “Force Field of Worry” – like the stick seen as a snake

It simply is part of the flow – Part of God (heart)