June 10 2025

Yesterday i stated a choice – a choice, essentially, to say YES to the release of all the barriers erected to Love…

I Stand Still in this choice
I Stand Still as Self

Soon after 3 separate “worldly” stories (and then 4) activated within me fear, a sense that i was doing it wrong, was going to be attacked, etc…

I did not take action in the world to diffuse the feeling

I did my best to around it “inside”

All the “stories” have come and gone

What is here now is a physical pain across the lowest part of the back

And it is this i bring to the dyad…

Thank you for the dyad

Tenderness

The body is experiencing a chill
A cough
teary eyes

Gentle Soft Willing Allowing
What was hidden to be seen

The picture, the image of the bunk, summer camp…

Locking bits and pieces of “cyndi” away so she didn’t have to feel the isolation and rejection.

Tenderness
It IS Time NOW to bring these parts…
To invite these parts home

Gentle Patient Kind Tender

cyndi as mother, as teacher, as minister, as friend…

All that is needed is HERE NOW to be with all the parts of me…
The scared parts
The rejected parts

Tenderness

On this night I choose to allow the release of any and all barriers that I have erected to love, that I have utilized to keep myself away or from love, that I have decided must be there, should be there, or will always be there. On this night I say yes to the level of tone that can move this in fullness, that can release the structures that have been erected through these beliefs, the past habituated behaviors and expectations that I have utilized to keep myself from love. As I agree to this I am sung anew, I am claimed anew, I am received anew, and I am known in love, of love, worthy of love, expressed as love, and in the vibration of love. I am Word through this intention. Word I am Word. – The Guides

And So It IS