cyndi’s contemplation

At every instant, one is really making a choice between heaven and hell. The cumulative effect of all these choices determines the calibrated level of consciousness and one’s karmic and spiritual fate. – Dr David Hawkins

Here i sit

The “small self” is active (Hello Sweetie 🙂 )

In her I see…

Loneliness

confusion around car story

a gentle loving determination to find and hang with God

As i enter today’s dyadic experience it is with the intention to continue to expose and surrender to the light all that is here that continues to feed any flavor of fear.

I recognize that the little self is on, active. There is a recognition within her that she is but an idea, a collection of memories and habits, a temporary housing for the divine…

etc etc etc

and the sense with “her” is a heaviness, a murky slowness.

Such a weirdness – this sense of a “me separate” held within a knowingness that it JUST AINT SO….

The “word” that is arising to describe the current state is “cranky”.

There is a sense of moving through something thick and heavy and somewhat oppresive.

And yet….

I am moving

things are “getting done.”

From the New Testament John CH 1…

“and though the World was made through him, the world did not recognize him.”

The cyndi persona in her habitual ways of identifyig as “x,y,z” and her interactions with so called “others” can talk about God and Trust in God but she holds herself as apart…

and in that seeming separation there is a distortion, a confusion…

as i STEP into today’s dyad it is with the single focused intention to – well –

Know myself A New – IN TRUTH

As i prepare to enter today’s dyadic experience it is with a specific aspect of the “cyndi” i will to surrender and have reclaimed in the upper room.

I FULLY EMBRACE THE TEACHING that it is possible to be the human experience – fully immersed – without any flavor of fear.

That i can be the embodiment and expression of the Frequency of Love and Above.

I CHOOSE THIS

This morning i read that i can claim joy and wonder.

As i enter today’s dyadic experience it is with this claim I HOLD in my heart.

Joy and Wonder

Yes Please

More and More of That

I am aware of the small self and it’s activities – i see her “working”, planning – “deciding” – wondering…

not so much “worrying”

but she does compare – and continually make up stories about

not me

not here

not now

This morning i read that – essentially – i can ask the guides (hello my teachers and friends) to copilot cyndi’s life until such time the small self is assumed by the True Self.

NO QUESTION I AM ALL FOR THIS

as i enter today’s dyadic experience it is with the focused intention to TURN THE LIGHTS ON

To realize the problem is the illusion of the small self claiming itself in form gives you the immediate opportunity to re-see or re-know or realize the thing you call a problem as an opportunity to develop, to know anew. – Beyond the Known: REALIZATION