Thank you for your presence 🙂 What follows is the writing that came through me as part of a daily writing dyad practice I have participating in since the end of 2020. In each of these writings you will discover a written intention that is set before the dyad and then a response that came through after the 40 minute dyad practice. To find out more visit: The Global Dyad Meditation Project
There is a wave of “it’s not alright, my life is not alright” that is being seen.
Heavy, dank, exhausting
eyes pulsing as i write.
Would perhaps scream but there is NOT Power behind the urge.
and – strange or otherwise there is NOT SENSE of a “problem to solve” here…
or that it is personal or even mine.
The “small self” is “disturbed”
Not in a “troubling” way – more in a “the mud at the bottom of the glass has been kicked up and clarity i – well – not clear.
I Will to Surrender ALL the mud – that every aspect of the cyndi story be reclaimed in the Tune/Frequency of Love and Above
Let every voice but God’s Be stilled in me
As i enter today’s dyad it is with the desire to have an inner conflict resolved.
The story…
I am preparing for a “future” discussion/teaching where we will be looking at how to be with ACIM Workbook Lesson 128 while being in the world.
and i am noticing the expectation that “others” may be in disagreement.
There is a sense of “right and wrong” in here which is out of alignment with my sense of the lesson
As i enter today’s dyadic experience it is a heightened sense of “inadequacy” in almost every exchange cyndi is having (or choosing not to have) with others…
distorted perception…
a fear of being attacked for saying the “wrong thing”
a fear of being attacked for resting into and connecting with others just as i am in this moment NOW
I ask for assistance
At every instant, one is really making a choice between heaven and hell. The cumulative effect of all these choices determines the calibrated level of consciousness and one’s karmic and spiritual fate. – Dr David Hawkins
Here i sit
The “small self” is active (Hello Sweetie 🙂 )
In her I see…
Loneliness
confusion around car story
a gentle loving determination to find and hang with God
As i enter today’s dyadic experience it is with the intention to continue to expose and surrender to the light all that is here that continues to feed any flavor of fear.
I recognize that the little self is on, active. There is a recognition within her that she is but an idea, a collection of memories and habits, a temporary housing for the divine…
etc etc etc
and the sense with “her” is a heaviness, a murky slowness.
Such a weirdness – this sense of a “me separate” held within a knowingness that it JUST AINT SO….
The “word” that is arising to describe the current state is “cranky”.
There is a sense of moving through something thick and heavy and somewhat oppresive.
And yet….
I am moving
things are “getting done.”
From the New Testament John CH 1…
“and though the World was made through him, the world did not recognize him.”
The cyndi persona in her habitual ways of identifyig as “x,y,z” and her interactions with so called “others” can talk about God and Trust in God but she holds herself as apart…
and in that seeming separation there is a distortion, a confusion…
as i STEP into today’s dyad it is with the single focused intention to – well –
Know myself A New – IN TRUTH
As i prepare to enter today’s dyadic experience it is with a specific aspect of the “cyndi” i will to surrender and have reclaimed in the upper room.
I FULLY EMBRACE THE TEACHING that it is possible to be the human experience – fully immersed – without any flavor of fear.
That i can be the embodiment and expression of the Frequency of Love and Above.
I CHOOSE THIS