February 13 2025
Please help me heal my fear based thoughts!
This morning i saw how subtle and invasive these thoughts can be.
I was sitting on my comfortable couch in my warm apartment and i heard the sound of a neighbor scrapping the ice off a windshield.
First thought…
- Glad it’s not me
Second thought…
- Glad emma doesn’t work until 10, hope it all melts by then
and than i “saw” the taste of separate, special, and fear in those thoughts which, until now, i may have allowed as normal, and ok.
As i step into today’s dyad it is with the pray to turn the lights on…
Let NO fear based thought remain here
Thank you for the triad
holding pen… How to quiet the small self and allow the True Self to access human languages without fear distortion?
I will for 100% surrender
To lay down all fear – all fear thought, all form that has arisen from fear thought
NO LONGER A DESIRE TO MANAGE OR CONTROL “IT”
Body sensations kind of wild
i know it’s not personal
Hand moves, words appear…. i see them forming
I am aware of a voice dictating and then the hand moving and the words in the head becoming form.
Where are the words coming from before the voice speaks them ad the hand writes?
How to know myself in truth Beyond the Known…. Beyond fear
Body startled by a loud noise outside.
A physical fear response and yet the fear did not create a change in doings….
writing continues, eyes track the letters forming
Brain function groups letters and forms them into words and gives the words meaning
If the brain stopped functioning in this way what would remain of me?
SOMETHING looks through these eyes and it’s “not me”
it’s not what identifies as a cyndi with a brain and a limited light
How to close the gap?
Something looks through these eye and it’s not me
I will to be consumed by it
The world is still