February 15, 2025

Good Morning

Last night i spoke to my daughter. She called for help and i did what i do and her perspective changed and i watched her center and ground.

Getting off the phone i acknowledged and sat with an intense pain inside – heart pressure and physical nauseousness.

I sat, it built and at some point released – letting letting go of a giant air bubble.

The heart pain is here now

I “know” that it is not related to any “other” or any present day story.

I accept that the pain isn’t something to be “fixed”.

That it is something else.

I am willing……. I WILL for THE TRUTH

and as i step into today’s dyadic experience it is with the yearning to surrender into the True Self that i bring…

Please help to have all fear here be transformed…

Thank you for the dyad – and – for “being poked”

this sense of not being able to speak my desires and have them heard and fulfilled…

From the standpoint of victim i can share 10,000 stories of how this has played out – and i see how tender and wounded this sense of “i” still feels (how many times, in memory, have i, with tears in my eyes, asked for a hug and have been rejected instead?)

So…

accepting the Teachings…

• Everything is God
• God is Everything
• The world is an out-picturing of the current level of consciousness “in here”
• Every experience, here and now, is FOR ME, is an opportunity to allow lower vibrations to be re-turned and re-tuned in…

The Frequency of Love and Above

• The only moment IS NOW, the only moment i exist is NOW, the the “past” – all of it – is “not true” – it is a collection of memories colored by… colored by what?

not certain

but it smells of fear – and so…

well again – some confusion

Though i accept that fear in not useful and can be surrendered so – given a choice – i choose Letting the fear GO!

this “not being able to ask and receive”

the sense of being at risk of attack for asking 0 of being kicked when i am down…

it’s an aspect of the small self that is here now – and is NO LONGE Believed.

I CHOOSE TO SURRENDER and sense of protection these “stories” have given me – any sense that they justify staying isolated and alone.

The body aches

The heart hurts

The world is still

ps….