February 4 2025

I say yes to opening the door to what is churning on the other side

What is hiding in the shadows

What was touched yesterday – activating a sense of panic, nauseousness, and a small self mind that wanted to find someone to attack.

An intense feeling of not being safe, of being a failure to the ones i was responsible for, and not having a single, safe, kind place to land.

It is an IDEA of cyndi’s history

I accept that “what is” is an idea of what was that is now coloring and distorting the present moment.

and as i enter today’s dyadic experience it is with the intention “to be made A-NEW”

What was the line from yesterday share?

On this day I choose to align my entire being in offering to the Source of all things…

and

I give permission for the release of whatever may stand in its way.

Thank you for the dyad

and for the question…

What if you Know gratitude as a state of beingness instead of a doing?

JUST THAT

BEINGNESS
ALLOWING
THE BODY MIND TO BE IN
EXPRESSION OF WHAT

it had been holding

SOFTENING

Permitting the body/mind to open and expose what it had been cherishing

Stepping back and permitting all that had been claimed as…

THIS IS MINE

To be placed on the banquet table

Gratefulness as the foundation of Beingness

Every moment, every experience an opportunity to be KNOWN A-NEW in the field, in the frequency, of Love and Above.

The flames are feeding themselves now

Lighting up what had been in shadow

If GOD IS ALL what could be outside of that?

What you damn damns you back!!

What you damn keeps the dam intact

What happens when the little Dutch boy takes his finger out of the hole in the dam?

I will to cherish any aspect of separation NO LONGER

I CHOOSE TRUTH in the only moment it can BE KNOWN

NOW NOW NOW

what follows is my friend George Petrou’s contemplation from this morning. For me it feels like a support and a comfort… how about for you?

Gratitude shows me how good life was and how much sweeter it could have been if I’d remained in gratitude while reminding me how consistently good it still can be.

Gratitude is like a feeling of nostalgia for the present, a portal into exquisite experiences of aliveness and presence and everything that flows from those states and make no mistake, everything flows from those states for without them there is only dissociation, numbness and deadness.

I find my mind wandering over snow covered hills inside my cousin’s car in Athens years ago, still almost able to feel the sweltering heat, saturated streets of sunset, nearly hearing the music, almost inhaling the city’s scents.

Gratitude is the magic that converts the desublimated sublime back into the sublime, reminding the body soul that it really always was this good forever even when it wasn’t, amen.

04/02/2025 George Petrou