This quiescent January interlude is an essential gap between the old and the new. The past, trailing all of history behind lingering on the present time. The future beckons loudly ahead – attend to me instead! I will occupy your mind in a hypothetical, virtual time. Instead indulge in a restorative retreat and let January,…
Under an October sky The maple flaunts its orange flame Dancing in the wind it heaves a sigh Relieves itself and lets the sparks fly Branches bare in winter freeze Appear to die But they only sleep Dreaming of the buds of Spring There’s no need to grieve They’re just turning over a new leaf…
Sitting down to dyad with the “person in the world” on and still active
It’s not yet 8 and i have already been up and back down for a nap
Bread dough is rising
I have read, showered, walked the dog and fed all 3 4-leggeds
Started working on the new website.
and here i am?
It is to wake up from a dream that you have been conspiring with, and resonant with, and, in the new resonance, what is, was, but is known anew. – Beyond the Known: Realization
“What is, was, but is known anew”
What is been received, here, over and over is the message that cyndi can be “re-articulated” (friggin cool word)
Without fear!!!
There is a wave of “it’s not alright, my life is not alright” that is being seen.
Heavy, dank, exhausting
eyes pulsing as i write.
Would perhaps scream but there is NOT Power behind the urge.
and – strange or otherwise there is NOT SENSE of a “problem to solve” here…
or that it is personal or even mine.
The “small self” is “disturbed”
Not in a “troubling” way – more in a “the mud at the bottom of the glass has been kicked up and clarity i – well – not clear.
I Will to Surrender ALL the mud – that every aspect of the cyndi story be reclaimed in the Tune/Frequency of Love and Above
Let every voice but God’s Be stilled in me
I am no one and no-thing matters I manifest into the now with empty hands and an empty mind and if you know me we can be free together We can move on past fear and pain by leaving them behind and walk away And so, we are free to be and when we know …
As i enter today’s dyad it is with the desire to have an inner conflict resolved.
The story…
I am preparing for a “future” discussion/teaching where we will be looking at how to be with ACIM Workbook Lesson 128 while being in the world.
and i am noticing the expectation that “others” may be in disagreement.
There is a sense of “right and wrong” in here which is out of alignment with my sense of the lesson
As i enter today’s dyadic experience it is a heightened sense of “inadequacy” in almost every exchange cyndi is having (or choosing not to have) with others…
distorted perception…
a fear of being attacked for saying the “wrong thing”
a fear of being attacked for resting into and connecting with others just as i am in this moment NOW
I ask for assistance
At every instant, one is really making a choice between heaven and hell. The cumulative effect of all these choices determines the calibrated level of consciousness and one’s karmic and spiritual fate. – Dr David Hawkins