April 10 2025

Compassionate Inquiry session this morning exposed the sense that what i am is broken and wrong…

Conversation with sister after and – well – the physical explosion of standing still in pain is here…

this sense that the “world out there” responds to any sense of brokenness “in here” that they attack me with all sorts of things that….

• either make me feel like they know how to fix me
• or leave me feeling that they do no believe i have the right to feel how i feel
• or that “my pain” makes other people suffer so how dare i…

As i enter today’s dyad it is a request for assistance i bring

I accept that all of this is “here” – in this sense of cyndi separate – and the “world out there” has gifted me with the opportunity to embrace and hold what is available to transform…

Thank you for the dyad

and the reminder that I don’t have to be “on” ever…

That there is NO ONE out there that can hurt me or assist me

and there is NO ONE in here

that can ever be other then what created here is this being radically honest?

or is it using Spiritual Concepts to minimize the intensity of sensation here?

How to know Beyond the Known?

Intention – to be assumed/consumed by the TRUE SELF

What is most useful now?

Dear Lord I pray…

I pray for clarity, for strength

I pray to be made fully available for your council

to be available for the Life you would have me live

I pray for the guidance that will allow for the transformation of all misperception

I pray to have brought to light all that has been hidden in darkness

All aspects that have seemingly been denied the Light

I pray for the strength required to be all that you would have me be

Dear Lord – the pain is intense – I trust the teaching that states that this points to a blessing 10xs greater

I pray for assistance in doing “my part” in this transformation

HELP ME TO SEE

Thank you Lord